Re: Trish's story...
2007-07-31 19:03:48Thanks Karl, for your input. I was finally put on anti-depressants
about a year and 1/2 ago. I think, well, I know they work wonders for
me!! I am taking wellbutrin.
I guess I never realized how depressed I was, and kinda still are. I
mean if I had one wish, I would wish to see a pic. of what I should
have looked like. I have thought that my entire life. The thought of
it now, still brings tears to my eyes.
My pain is bad, but I think I am just at the beginning stages, that
is why I am so interested in finding information about flat back and
what I probably have to look forward to.
I have been going to physical therapy for about 8 months now.. I
think the excersises are helping my stomach, but every time I do
them, my back hurts more... I really try to do them every night
though..
As for my x-rays of before surgery.. I have tried to get them, I
called my surgeons office 3 times over the years, and they tell me
that they are gone, they dont keep them if I do not continue to
either go to that hospital, or continue to see the doc. And I have
not gone back to either.
Also, another health thing I have going on, is I am insulin dependant
diabetic. I have been for 12 years now. I take 4 shots a day. So, not
only do I have to constantly think about how I am sitting, am I
sucking in my tummy to work those muscles, am I tucking in my right
shoulder blade, how do my clothes fit, when to take my med all
through the day..and so on.. I also have to constantly think about
how I feel, is my blood sugar tweeking out.. when I am going to eat
next, and what will I eat, and how much. So I can determin how much
of a shot I need to take... am I going to work out, or go to the mall
and walk.... ohh it goes on and on....
It just irritates me that I always have multiple things going on in
my mind about my health.. and so many other people have no concept
what so ever of what I have to go through, every moment of every
day...
o.k., I am getting carried away.. I will write more later...
-Trish